Honestly, I never thought I would develop the confidence to write so that the whole world could read my posts. This being my first blog, I would like to share my journey up to this point.
I have parents who love education. Why shouldn’t they? It is a powerful tool. It makes us knowledgeable. It makes us aware of our right. It helps us determine what is what. For people who are not sure about their career, education is like a safety net. If you land a private job, you are into money making. If you land a government sector job, you have job security. What is not there to like?
Honestly, I used to think so too. Until one day I randomly decided to try out something new. I joined the CSI team of Aaruush. CSI is the team which handled publicity, a lot of sales, crowd management and crisis management for the fest. Honestly, I thought I would never fit in a team whose members inculcate these skills. I was afraid of public speaking. I had given two speeches in my entire life, both in the final year of school. Once, I was forced to give a speech for a morning assembly, and once I decided to give a speech on our farewell day. But handling sales, oh no man! Not my kind of thing. But I tried. I was out there to prove myself. I kept trying and whoa! I never realized how this thing changed me. It introduced me to something which my education could never do. Ever since then I have tried my hands in many different events as a part of Organizing Committee. That is one beautiful part of my life.
The other part is not so bright. My parents were kind of overprotective. I did not want that. I wanted to experience the world for what it was, not a sugar-coated version of the world. This led to an exposure which told me there is no such thing as right or wrong! Maybe good and bad but not right or wrong. I thought I was on the right track. I easily survived my first year of college, and that too in a happy mode. Until the situations forced me to reconsider, not in a good way, In a bad way! I stopped believing in good and bad! Don’t know what came over me. I was on a downward spiral towards a path of darkness, and I always thought I was on the right track! I was doing Muns initially because I wanted to but I made a wrong choice there by going for an Mun in Bangalore because of the cash prize. I tried to sell my values for some money? some red and yellow paper pieces! Probably a Demand Draft (never won anything there though). But, I thought I was on the right track!
I sulked. I spiralled really down. Like heavy down. I didn’t know where I was going. I honestly worked my ass off to just ignore everything that was going on there. I never realized what had happened to me! I actually started feeling lost. Things got out of control! Didn’t knew how to deal with it! Didn’t knew what was going on! I messed up my internship in business management (am a cse student). What to do now?
I was so desperate I decided to talk to a friend and a stranger regarding this, and that turned my world upside down. Both of them. Stranger? Like nothing was the same as before. She was someone who not only understood my problems but also had a partially similar experience with things. She became a friend and taught me how to deal with my issues. She helped me understand that I am not the only one in the world with such issues. Such problems happen to everyone and it is perfectly fine to be worried about them. Instead of worrying I should take a break from everything, enj0y life, enjoy what I have, do what I like and not pay much attention to the bad elements. She helped me become open minded in a way I didn’t thought was possible. friend? She helped me parallelly. She helped me become a much better person by taking initiative. She helped me meet someone who understood me and helped me realize how lucky I am. How it is futile to worry about things. He helped me see things from a different perspective. They together guided me in a manner that made me realize nothing is really hard or complex, just our perception of it.
Then I tried my hands on a marketing and sales internship. And what happened? The first person whom I convinced actually, well we struck a chord! It felt so natural that we didn’t realize it but she became like a sister to me. I still have no idea why but I don’t care really. I feel connected and that’s what mattered!
Now I have three people apart from my parents and my childhood friend who are my family. And I love talking to random people now. They are most fun and lovely to talk to. Nothing like making new friends and spreading the joy of happiness and love. I don’t trust people without judging them but I give everyone a chance, because everyone deserves it, because life gave me one!